Empty

Empty tomb. That's what Mary found. So you and me can be free. The curtain has been torn and we have a full access to the Father. Forever. 

"Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the holy places by the blood of Jesus, by the new and living way that he opened for us through the curtain, that is, through his flesh, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near with a true heart in full assurance of faith, with our hearts sprinkled clean from an evil conscience and our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful."

 ~Hebrews 10:19-23

I’m holding on to You

It’s all I know to do

And I remember the nails that You took for me

When You died in my shame and iniquity

Jesus, You have set me free 

The thorns of my pain You wore in a crown

When You bowed Your head

Your love was poured out

And my chains hit the ground

  

I am Yours

Forever all my days, I lay before Your holy love

I’m holding onto love

~Not complete lyrics 

He is Risen!  

The chains hit the ground. 

I am free...

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You are...

...the apple of my eye - someone that one cherishes above all others; 
one's favorite person; the one you love most.

 

You are the apple of My eye was what God impressed on my heart during my inner healing. I have always thought of the apple as a bad thing, as temptation, something that Eve concentrated on and what brought all the trouble. Until God flipped it all for me. You are the apple of My eye. And as I was sharing the "apple story", as I said it again, that's what Eve concentrated on, it "hit" me. Oh! You are the apple of My eye, that's what you need to concentrate on.

"He found him [me] in a desert land, and in the howling waste of the wilderness; he encircled him [me], he cared for him [me], he kept him [me] as the apple of his eye." 

~Deuteronomy 32:10

Thank You JESUS! It means even more today, Good Friday, as you have proven your love for me... for us...

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Beloved (2)

And then came May 23rd. I celebrated my 16th born-again birthday. Realizing "my age" I also wanted to assume the responsibility that comes with it as in our natural life. I cannot act like a baby anymore, throwing fits, "kicking and screaming" if things don't go my way. I could drive now! And soon I will be entering "adulthood". I never wanted to be the same. And I was not going to. Literally. On that day I also got a tattoo on my right hand; the word "beloved", so I would never forget that's what I am and that's what I want. (That's what I think we all want to be-loved). And the greatest thing is that we are. We are beloved by the Most High God who sent His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)

So we could be adopted into His family. 

"But now thus says the Lord,

he who created you, O Jacob,

he who formed you, O Israel:

Fear not, for I have redeemed you;

     I have called you by name, you are mine.

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;

    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;

when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,

    and the flame shall not consume you.

For I am the Lord your God,

    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.

Because you are precious in my eyes,
    and honored, and I love you"

~ From Isaiah 43

Until God's love is enough, nothing else will be. I believe (in my heart) that God loves me, which of course changes everything...

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Beloved (1)

It was couple of months before I celebrated my Sweet Sixteen; sixteen years of being the daughter of the Most High God when I was given a handkerchief with my initials and the word "beloved" on it; handkerchief that started my process of believing (in my heart) and transforming.

 


My inability to change or sustain the life I wanted to live was "killing me softly". I would not like myself because of the failures I was experiencing, so it was hard to actually believe that I am beloved. How could that be? How could God love me? I did not like myself. I failed to accept God's judgment on the old me. My old self is crucified with Christ. The old sin nature was judged, found guilty, crucified, died, was buried. I am now a new creation. Created in the likeness and righteousness of God. My self-worth was not established in my new identity in Jesus. That which is in my spirit, all that God has done was not reality in my life. I created a false god. I could never be happy; there was always something. I was not living under grace. 

Next came this song:

In the mirror all I see, 

 Is who I don't wanna be, 

Remind me who I am. 

In the loneliest places, 

When I can't remember what grace is.

Tell me once again who I am to you. 

Who I am to you.

Tell me lest I forget who I am to you.  

That I belong to you.

To you.

 When I can't receive your love,

Afraid I'll never be enough,

Remind me to I am.

 If I'm your beloved,

Can you help me to believe it.

I'm the one you love,

I'm the one you love,

That will be enough,

I'm the one you love.
~Not complete lyrics 

It was after I believed in my heart that God loves me that I am HIS BELOVED that I started to change and I could believe it because it was no longer my life, but my life through Jesus.

" For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God."

~Colossians 3:3

"I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."
~Galatians 2:20

Lord, we are your beloved; help us to believe it.

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Hosanna!

Today is officially my first day of blogging, apart from yesterdays introduction. I am giving it a "test run", a week in preparation before starting my P40 journey on April 1st, 2013. Much as today, Sunday, March Twenty Fourth is Palm Sunday, marking the beginning of a very special week for my Lord and Savior and the journey He took.

"Rejoice greatly, O daughter of Zion!

Shout aloud, O daughter of Jerusalem!

Behold your king is coming to you;

righteous and having salvation is he, 

humble and mounted on a donkey,

on a colt, the foal of a donkey." 

~Zechariah 9:9

"Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord!" 

 ~Mark 11:9b 

Let us arrive with Jesus, the King of Glory. Let us rise up and take our place, with selfless faith as we pray and seek. Lord, heal our hearts and make them clean, open our eyes to the things unseen, show us how to love like You. Let us flourish like a palm tree and grow like a cedar in Lebanon (Ps. 92:12).

Thank you for starting this journey with me.

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Welcome!

The name CZECHING IN was inspired and is a combination of email with the subject line "Checking in" of my Bible study partner, in which she was sharing with me about her Bells Palsy (Please pray; cannot wait to post your healing date, girl) and a play on words which exposes my country of origin and my "wonderful" sense of humor.

This blog is dedicated to my husband. I will have it as long as you too – believe that you are BELOVED and live in that truth, my love.

This blog is also my "recovery" tool. Yes. I am in rehab. And I need your help. I realized I needed to "admit" myself and really ask for help this time. Anything I can do to leave my judgments, critical thoughts and work-based mentality. As my 40th birthday is approaching (November 6), never before do I want to be more deliberate in how I use my time. I need help to stay focused. So that's why P40. P40 for me it's all about - GRACE. I am learning to live in my new identity, to know who I am in Christ, to guard my heart, not to judge, not to base my actions and attitudes on actions and attitudes of others, not to be controlled by anything other than Jesus; and most importantly to BELIEVE the truth about myself, about God and to "write" it on my heart. I made a decision to "live from the heart", where motives and intents are challenged, being guided by the Holy Spirit, trusting and relying on Jesus, processing everything with Papa (God). I know it will take time to re-learn and undo to damage the wrong beliefs had caused, but I am on my way. And I am okay if it does not happen by the time I turn 40. I want to be "okay with myself" now, even though things are not perfect and I don't always do everything right.

It's all about Jesus.

But left to myself I cannot do it... that's why I need YOU!

I need your help any time a week, any time a day. So please feel free to share with me the TRUTH, the truth about God, the truth about ourselves, who we are, how are you renewing your mind, or any encouraging words. Anything that can help me to get the "old" me to die and to help the "new" me to live the life Jesus died for me to have.

I know that change is possible. I know that my Jesus has a better way for me. My hope is that by you helping me you will be helped as well. I think we all need to know who we are, who we are in CHRIST and learn to live under grace. And that is what the content of this blog is mainly about; anything that can help to point us to Jesus and His way and help to get our eyes off of ourselves. To be free, healed and whole.

Keep CZECHING IN!